Wonderwall.

So recently I stumbled upon oasis's song "wonderwall" in my itunes. A couple weeks ago actually. I was packing for CIY and I couldn't get it out of my head. Well, even more recently I've stumbled upon the Ryan Adams version of it. There's something that just really attracts me to that song. I've known it basically forever...you know how many times i've heard it covered at muggswigz? probably millions...but something lately just makes me love it a lot.

Home.

I am home. Yes...finally home. I went to CIY for a week, then came home for less than a day, did my laundry and left for camp with the worship team. Hindsight of the week, it was a really great week, but it was still extremely trying. That's the best way that I think it could be worded.

However, there were some really awesome worship experiences last week. One of which was on tuesday night. We walked down to a creek and the speaker invited students into the creek to symbolically represent the cleansing of Jesus as he wipes away all of our blemishes. The worship team lead with a couple acoustic guitars. It was really cool.

On thursday night, there was a big storm approaching as we began worship. One song into our set, the power was shot. Instead of freaking out and freezing up though, we just kept going. Josh and Ryan went picked up the extra acoustics. It was especially cool because we had been doing this experiential thing with candles anyway, so when the power went out we still had light and it was really cool. It's nights like those that make me look past all the strenuous things that happen when it comes to putting trips and camps together.

So yeah, I'm happy to be home though. I've really missed some of my friend here. I've thought about how cool it would be to intern with CIY or an organization like that over a summer, but then when I think more seriously about it, I know that there would be almost no way I could do it. I think I'm just tied down to Ohio. Not in a bad way, of course, but I just mean that I'd be really nervous to leave everything and everyone I've ever known. Things just wouldn't be the same when I came home...I guess that's what I'm most frightened of. I'm not removing any possibility of being called away from here eventually...but I know, without a doubt, this is where I need to be right now.


(oh, and keep an eye out on the flickr for a bit...I'm going to be putting up CIY and Camp pictures here pretty soon!)

Picture

I took this picture a couple hours ago here at muggswigz. I really like it. I think I'm artsy at heart. :)

Leaving.

Well, I leave tomorrow for two weeks. Or no, I leave in two days for two weeks. I feel like its tomorrow though. I'll acutally be gone for a week in Indiana for a week then I'll be home for a day and then leave for another week to go down to elkhorn valley with the senior high worship team.

This may sound kind of wierd, but I'm really excited for the 7 hour bus ride. It's going to be amazing. 7 hours of forced nothingness. No work to do, no phone calls to make, no more philosophy class, nothing. Just me, SHers, some books, and some music. Perfect.

I have a feeling I'm going to get lonely though. For some reason, the times when I feel most lonely are the days when I am in crowds of people. It's like the typical movie shot where you see a person and everything else around them is blurred and the sounds are all echoed. You should know what I mean...it's the perfect picture of what I feel.

Change.

Last night was the art show at muggswigz. It was fun...crowded but fun. Anyway, I've just been around and workin on philosophy today. I read a dialogue on knowing today. It was interesting. What do we know? That is the big question. I've found that I don't necessarily hate that class or the reading, it just takes some concentration. The final is on Friday though.

I'm really excited for this summer. For some reason, I'm really dying to switch things up a bit. No vacation with the family this year though. I am, however, going to Anderson for a week then to a camp with the w-team for a week too. I think that'll be a blast.

I realized that last night though. I'm kind of tired of going to the same two places. Starbucks, muggswigz, starbucks, muggswigz...and now panera thrown in there due to the free wireless internet too. haha. What else is there to do? I'm lost. Either that or I'm just a super boring person. I do, however, really like the environment at those places. You feel so free. Talk to people you would never talk to. Build friendships with those you'd never see. I like it. So, I guess I'm not that tired of the routine after all. I'm switching things up a bit tonight I think.

We'll see...