Confusion

Things can never just be sorted out in my head.
There's always a whirpool of thoughts.
Some good.
Others not.
Mostly just wondering why things are.

I need things to be conclusive
No questions
Just answers
Specifically the answers I would like
But then again, that may make things too easy.

Obligated.

I feel the need to update since it's been over a week, but I really don't have anything to say. I really liked when I did that thing a while ago, so I shall do it again...it seems to be the easiest way for me to share my thoughts when I don't know what else to talk about...

I'm discontented.
I don't know why.
Something is going on.
But I don't even know if it even concerns me.
I bet if I could figure it out, I'd know if it was something I needed to worry about.
Life is confusing sometimes.
But why do I always need to have it all figured out?
It's pretty obvious that I'll never get it all.
So why do I keep trying to make sense of the world?
Like trying to figure out why some love and others don't?
Why some....well love is the only think I can think of.
I think people want to be in something bigger than themselves.
Love does that.
Not just boy love...don't get me confused with "that girl"
Just love.
It's bigger than us.
He's bigger than us.

A Little Refresher.

Well, I finally got the internet working over here....of course, now that I'm going home tomorrow. haha.

The new MacBook came out on Tuesday. I'm excited. I'm going to order mine this weekend sometime. (hopefully sooner than later). I'm excited not only because it's super nice, but because it's really going to help me work. That sounds weird. I mean, since I've been at the church it's just been a weird waiting game. I just can't wait to get everything up and running. (I heard they even smell good!)

I realized the other day how much potential this summer has to be the most amazing summer ever. It could even top the "white-shirt" year...not that I'm measuring or anything. haha. For some reason, I remember JR saying once how it felt to (figuratively, of course) walk into work everyday hand-in-hand with his best friends. I think I get it now. I was sitting in the offices the other day and that really just hit me. I mean, we all just kind of fit together. One person's weaknesses are the others' strengths and so forth. Can I just say...if all goes well...this summer is going to be pretty sweet. God is moving already.

Again. . .

Sorry it's been so long. I'm house-sitting again...so I haven't been around and online a lot lately. She doesn't get home until next sunday night. I'll try and make a better post later if I get the chance. My mom just got back into the workroom so I've got to get going! Have a great day!

Quaker Steak!

Last night, some of us drove up to Quaker Steak and Lube to go have a good time and eat wings. To our surprise as we rounded the corner, it may have been the largest bikers night I had ever seen. In light of nearly being toppled by several bikes and intimidated like no other, it was a great time! As usual, I whimped out on eating the atomic wings, but I got a few good pictures of the eventful task of everyone else eating them. (go check out my flickr!)

This week has been quite enjoyable. My parents are out of town, so the house is kind of quiet. Honestly, it's not really that big of a difference than normal because I typically am not around or am up in my room anyways. But the biggest difference is that I'm not working with my mom this week either, for the obvious reason. Which sucks financially, but it's been nice to take a week off before things at the church get super crazy and I start my summer class and stuff. Well, I must go get ready for the day, seeing that I've got some errands to run, lessons to teach, and small group down in Malvern tonight! Have a great day!

A Literal Translation Of My Thoughts.

I just finished my last exam.
I can't believe school is done.
I am excited.
I needed a break.
Summer is awesome.
It's really nice outside.
I'm going to go on a walk.
I went biking yesterday in Canal Fulton.
I'm going to go again today.
Sometimes I like quiet.
I left my cell phone at home too.
On purpose.
It was nice.
No calls.
But quiet makes me lonely.
I just looked up "lonely" in the thesaurus.
I look up words in there often.
But only when I want to make a point.
I stress the word with it's synonym or similar meaninged phrase.
I don't think "meaninged" is a word.
Anyway.
A synonym for it is "without a friend in the world."
That's interesting.
Actually kind of sad.
So should I use that term?
Do I feel like that?
Probably not.
But maybe.
So I'm going on that walk.