Wait For It.

I really don't even know what to say tonight. I have not purpose for updating this, I just felt like updating. I guess because I know it's getting to be late but it doesn't matter because I don't have to be over to Malone until 1 tomorrow. Today I had my lit in society and old testament exam...I think I did alright on them. I think I got over-concerned about the whole thing. It wasn't nearly as bad as I thought it was going to be. Anyways, tonight was worship team and then some of us went over to muggswigz afterwards for "open mic night."

Anyways, you know sometimes when there's something that you know...but you just have the hardest time doing...or convincing yourself to do it. (haha, I'm kind of being a little general here) Specifically, I've just really been thinking about God's will for me and more holistically the ministries and situations that I'm in. I guess sometimes we can fall into knowing where we'd like things to go...and then try to convince ourselves that that is really God's will. But then we go on rationalizing things again (which we ultimately cannot fully understand anyways) and realizing that it really isn't your will that ultimately matters, it's God's. In the long run, I'd definitly have to say that God's plan is much better than ours could ever be...so why is it so tough sometimes to just stick it out and wait? But I guess that's the beauty of it all...we can't do it...we can't just 'stick it out and wait' because that would remove our dependence on God. So I guess by waiting and depending on God to reveal His will for us, or just waiting for that will to unfold....we are infact serving, obeying, and loving Him just as much as if His will was already unfolded within a certain circumstance because we are depending on His guidance even more when we dont' know what's going on.

Wow, that all just came out of nowhere. But I think things are making more sense to me now. I'll just wait and trust His judgement because He knows best anyways.