David Crowder Revelations

Well, I thought this weekend was going to really suck, but it wasn't so bad after all. Tonight I went to the oktoberfest thing in the park for awhile and watched a couple of bands play...but I got there kind of late so it was pretty much over already. Anyways, I saw some people there I knew...but I just don't feel comfortable going up and hanging out with them. I just don't know what to do...I want to get to know people, but sometimes I feel like there's just a huge wall standing between me and everyone else. I honestly just don't know what else I can do...I'm always trying to be on-campus hanging out...but it seems that no one is ever out or willing to really take the time to get to know me. Anyways, I ended up over at lazer quest then hung out with Kristen for the night...it was acutally a lot of fun. We discovered tonight that we are really similar.

Well, I bought the new David Crowder Band cd on Tuesday...at first I was a little weary of it because it's not necessarily you're typical DCB cd, but I really like it. Anyways, I was driving home tonight and I was listening to the song "Do Not Move." For some reason, I just felt like God was talking to me...I'm in such a weird position right now...and to a certain extent, I've been wanting to go back to last summer. I remember thinking to myself during summer..."if I could just freeze life it would be perfect." I somehow got stuck in this mindset of not wanting to move...I just wanted to stay where I was and keep things the way things had been going. This, however, is not God's plan for us. Well anyways, this song says..."I don't want to move, I don't think I could...I don't want to move, I don't think I should." Things change, even if I don't want them to...but God is in control, even if I don't really want to be "moving" in a sense. Anyways, the song keeps going and he just kesp saying "breathe in deeper now." And I realized God is just calling me to trust him...breathe it in, let things go, let things be. I don't need to be in control, and I don't know why I think that I do. Human nature I guess...

Let me want to move....Let me want to change...moreover, let me breathe in deeper now.