Well, it's only been one day since everyone left for mexico, and I'm lonely already. On friday night I went to the lot party and then spent the night at the church. The bands weren't all that great...but mostly because I'm not into hard core rock stuff. Once the boys realized the bands weren't good, they left me there to fend for myself...sometimes they just don't think outside of their immediate group. Luckily, rachel eventually showed up. So, I hung out at the church until about 4am because that's when the mexico bus left, then I went home. I probably wouldn't have stayed the whole time because all I pretty much wanted to do was sit down and talk with rachel because I hadn't been able to do that in awhile...but people kept following us...not that I dislike them or anything, I just wanted to talk. We literally didn't have a minute to really talk until nearly 2:30am. I wish the worship team as a whole would talk like that more often. It's really easy to only talk about music with all of them, not that music is bad or anything, but there is so much more to each of us than just playing an instrument. Sometimes I try, but people just shut down. I'm hoping that the worship team might become a good d-group sort of thing this fall. But anyways, yesterday I didn't really do much of anything other than lead worship at the church like normal. Then today I pretty much did the same thing...I got up and went to church then came home. I almost feel like I'm bothering people by asking them if they want to do anything, but I'm dying here people...let's go do something...even if it's nothing big.


I've been watching your world from afar
I've been trying to be where you are
And I've been secretly falling apart
To me, you're strange and you're beautiful
--aqualung "strange & beautiful"